August 6, 2023
Long time no see!! I waa gone for a few weeks as we were moving! We are still unpacking stuff and getting it closer to being a full home, but its been a week & I'm settled in and ready to return to my tasks again. I haven't drawn much, and haven't played bass at all :( but I'll be be getting back to it all soon! I almost feel like I have too many hobbies, it can be overwhelming sometimes to stick with all of them. Especially because some of them are stuff you have to do extremely regularly to keep a basis in (like Norwegian) or something that I coudl technially go a while without doing (drawing, writing, bass), but would need a solid skill in order to not be a beginner when I return.

The new house is so spaceous, its awesome. Our old apartment was so tiny, there was no space ANYWHERE! My room had no storage mechanisms, and all the closets were full, and everyone was always somewhere. Now, theres multiple spaces to be to escape other people, like the living room or the backyard or front porch or the garage or in someone elses room or the common room.. So much space! My own room has a lot more space in it, and I have an actual fucking shelf. Not everything has to be on my desk!! I can have a cleared off desk!!!!! My room also looks pretty awesome itself, I covered the basement walls entirely with art, and the floor has some gorgeous rugs.. Doesn't even feel like a basement, lovely!!

Sharing a room with my sister has destroyed my sleep schedule though, since its hard to sleep whens someone else is awake doing things around me. School starts in a week, and I'd really really like to keep a good schedule so I hope this won't be an issue during the school year. If my sister and Carmen staying up ridiculously late on school nights ruins my own sleep, I will be extremely violent. I'm actually very excited for school, its my senior year!! Then I'm OUT!!!! The year should be pretty easy, I mostly have to take some electives. I need to take gym and an art class and thats all I know I need, so it should be a pretty relaxed year. I also chose college classes that aren't too intense, so that should be fine as well.

I've been thinking of the future a fair bit, but not in a stressful way. Everyone my age is having crises over shit, and I've barely thought about any of it. I have complete confidence that my life will end up good no matter what I end up doing, so I'm not caught up over what college I get into or what job I'll work. One idea I've been particularly fixated on though, is studying abroad, specifically in Norway. If I can't get into a Norwegian program, I'll take something else. But I would love to go to Norway since it is my favourite country ever & I am learning the language

Going back to hobbies, I have so much I'm interested in and it stresses me out sometimes! I draw, animate, write, read, code, play bass, learn Norwegian, and other various tasks and it is so much sometimes! I think I'd be better off if I used social media less and used more of my time to focus on creating, but its hard sometimes lol. When I'm braindead, I don't want to read a book, I want to scroll on twitter. I took a 4 day break last week and it was very beneficial to my productivity, and I think maybe I should stop using twitter altogether. I don't use it quite as often as I did before, but still a little too much to be honest. I also do commissions and stuff that has time limits, and those make things feel so stressful too ugh. I hope I can balance all my hobbies during the school year.